Monday, November 19, 2007

peace

Quick update of my life before I proceed to either
a) read Strategy
b) nap
c) attempt to read Strategy and inadvertently nap

My mind is officially at peace.

My parents are starting to trust me more. They understand what I have to do, what I haven't the time to do, what I am capable of.

My brother has made the right choice. Between Hwa Chong & RI he's picked RI. I can't wait to see him enter RJ, can't wait to fund his overseas studies in Wharton. Stanford. Oxford. He's going to be successful.

My friends. I know at the end of the day, when I really need their help, they will be there.

My enemies. Personally, I have none. I don't hate anyone. My pissed-off-ness ebbs away within hours at most. But of course I can't expect people to react the same way. I'm sure there are people who dislike me, for whatever reason. I used to be bugged with what people think, used to not understand why they don't understand, but not anymore.

My love life. I'll have to say I'm blessed. I used to wonder why, in all other areas, I'm always lacking in luck. Well, it's because all the luck has gravitated towards this part of my life. Some people will think it's useless, that love won't buy you a car and a condo. I agree that love can't buy a lot of things, but it also makes you... well, not care as much about these things you can't afford.

My career. Or lack thereof? I'm in no better position than last time. I've been made to feel small in comparison to others. Patronized for my lack of experience, my superficial knowledge, my naivete, my lack of branded bank interviews. But in a recent stress interview, I woke up. The interviewer said of the company, "People here are hell smart. Hell smart." I am hell smart. Everything is going to turn out fine.