Wednesday, November 21, 2007

itchy itchy feet

I'm hit by it again.

Wanderlust.

Out of nowhere I just felt like taking off, going somewhere, leaving everything behind.

Okay, I'm Indonesian but I've never even been to Borobudur. Tangkuban Perahu. BALI! That's just wrong.

I've never been to Korea (South, not really fancying North much). Never been to Japan! Never been to the further bits of Malaysia. Myanmar (although probably not now). Vietnam.

Australia, apart from Sydney and Melbourne. I want to see the Gold Coast! I want to see kangaroos.

Russia, Eastern Europe. Beautiful and icy. People with grey beards and big noses, that's what I always thought of Russians. Heh.

Africa and the heat, though going there will probably depress me if I see the wrong things.

Shanghai? I want to see this metropolitan city for myself, what China's grown to be.

Ireland, Scotland and fried Mars bars.

Morocco and Leila... can't believe I actually skipped on witnessing a wedding. And for what, really? What is more important than culture, than a once-in-a-lifetime experience?

New York. I've never been.

The England countryside with bed & breakfasts.

Greece.

I need to find a job that'll take me to these places! Other than being an air stewardess. I've never been good at balancing.

Monday, November 19, 2007

peace

Quick update of my life before I proceed to either
a) read Strategy
b) nap
c) attempt to read Strategy and inadvertently nap

My mind is officially at peace.

My parents are starting to trust me more. They understand what I have to do, what I haven't the time to do, what I am capable of.

My brother has made the right choice. Between Hwa Chong & RI he's picked RI. I can't wait to see him enter RJ, can't wait to fund his overseas studies in Wharton. Stanford. Oxford. He's going to be successful.

My friends. I know at the end of the day, when I really need their help, they will be there.

My enemies. Personally, I have none. I don't hate anyone. My pissed-off-ness ebbs away within hours at most. But of course I can't expect people to react the same way. I'm sure there are people who dislike me, for whatever reason. I used to be bugged with what people think, used to not understand why they don't understand, but not anymore.

My love life. I'll have to say I'm blessed. I used to wonder why, in all other areas, I'm always lacking in luck. Well, it's because all the luck has gravitated towards this part of my life. Some people will think it's useless, that love won't buy you a car and a condo. I agree that love can't buy a lot of things, but it also makes you... well, not care as much about these things you can't afford.

My career. Or lack thereof? I'm in no better position than last time. I've been made to feel small in comparison to others. Patronized for my lack of experience, my superficial knowledge, my naivete, my lack of branded bank interviews. But in a recent stress interview, I woke up. The interviewer said of the company, "People here are hell smart. Hell smart." I am hell smart. Everything is going to turn out fine.

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

heroes swoon

A short clip from Heroes Season 2. LOVE the part where he says, "Claire... shut up."

Sunday, November 04, 2007

sen-sahahational

Okay, so I was moping around the house yesterday morning, postponing doing Equities homework for as long as I can help it. When I got out of a long warm shower, my maid told me that there's a huge package waiting for me.

Eh?

And there it was, waiting in my room. A huge box , as huge as the carrier bag I use to put all my extra clothes in because the wardrobe won't fit. It was pretty light for its size. I searched for a sender's name and it was him. Him, him, him. Airmailing a letter, Walker's Sensation chips, a bikini, Jaffa cakes and Mcvite's digestives.

The letter made me laugh. Well, he always makes me laugh. As I read sentence by sentence, I'm imagining him writing it. I love his handwriting. I traced the paper, because if I touch his handwriting, I could almost feel him... Almost. Suddenly a month and a half is that long.

Anyways, I'm all geared up for the exams. I can't wait for exams. Except there's still Equities project to take care of... Yawns. I have a feeling it's going to be a nightmare. Am meeting the team today to discuss, but I fear we lack direction and all of us don't seem too motivated to be doing the project. There's just a lot of forecasts to be done and my segment especially is a mess of vague boundaries. Valuing such a huge company as the one we've been given to do is a headache. Why couldn't we get the casino one? It's so unfair!

Anyways. Whatever. Once we do a smashing job I can start taking care of studies. Finally succumbed and bought the Master Tax Guide this past Friday. I've just opened it (I love new books!) and I vow to read it page-by-page everyday.

Also am getting a bit tired of blogging... The words come much slower to me than they did last time. Maybe it's time to say -