Monday, February 19, 2007

i think i am really bad at poker

Played the whole night with Andri and Daniel, yet while they won 50-odd dollars I could only rake in $10, practically breaking even.

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What's wrong with me?? There must be a flaw in my playing method. I can't help obsessing about this, what with Vegas Night just around the corner. I really had better train more before playing with the 39 pros at the table (OK, well, 38. I know how Yang plays).

Maybe I'm too tight. Yet sometimes I play loose too, and sometimes loose play makes me end up with half the original chip stack. I've been playing too many cash games that I forgot the right strategy for tournament. It seems a million years ago that I played with the Thornbanks people. How? Somebody help! Any tips for playing tournament with 40 people?

On to other matters. I think I'm missing the genes that make you grow up. You know, those genes that tell you to concentrate on building your resume so that you can nail a high-paying job. Those same genes that tell you to go look for someone who potentially could be your life partner. Those genes that tell you to join Cognitare, or SMIF, or EyE, or to network with people in the business world. Those genes that warn you to be politically correct at all times.

Without these genes, how could I be successful in life?

I'm starting to worry. Is it too late to make something of myself now?

I've talked to dad about trading strategies and I'd go register for an account after this CNY holiday is past. He's agreed to finance me, so hopefully in the near future I'd be able to get enough small change out of stocks and warrants to buy the Gucci bag.

But I don't know if that alone is enough. I really, really want to be a trader. Yet I haven't heard a peep out of all the trading internship applications I've sent out.

Mon is a failure :(

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Okay dokay will snap out of this bleeding-heart self-pitying mode now. SSSNNNAAAPPP!