Wednesday, December 27, 2006

lesson #068: shit. i'm leaving.

It's 1 AM on Wednesday, 27th December. My flight is in... 20 hours. I've packed most of my stuff away, but there are some stuff I left in the kitchen too. I can't believe this is happening. I look at my empty bathroom, my empty room, and feel as empty as them. Shit. This has been my home!

Shit. I'm leaving.

Let's rewind back time! Let's do things differently! Let's make the most of this experience. Let's go out more, cook more, stay up into the wee hours of the night more, chat on MSN more, play poker more, flirt harmlessly more. Let's go to classes all over again, let's not pay attention, let's fall asleep, let's go to town after the lessons to shop. Let's laugh more, cry more, feel more. Let's share secrets more, confide in each other more, get to know people more. Let's get drunk more, say 'fuck off' more, push each other more, tease each other more.

Let's do something! Anything to make time stop and turn back! I'm sure there must be something!

Shit... shit.

This can't be my last night. No no no no no no no no... =(