Sunday, November 26, 2006

lesson #056: hello, my name is procrastina

As I was sitting here in front of the laptop with my swivelling chair turned frontside-back, I became conscious of a slight nervous twitch above my right eyebrow. The thing that I've been dreading all this while is finally here.

That little thing called

stress.

At the back of my mind I'm aware of the piling list of things that I have to get done. On top of which is the UBS internship application. My 2,500 words Treasury Management essay on hedging programmes (HEDGING!!! Why can't it be something more familiar, like, err, discounting...) came a VERY close second.

The nervous twitch is making me, well, nervous. But I'm refusing to acknowledge its existence. I'm just gonna procrastinate for as long as I can. Which won't be all that long now.

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AAAACCCKKKKK!

My heart is palpitating. Hey, who needs to be in love when you can get the same adrenaline rush just by panicking? I should definitely panic more often. In fact, if I could bottle up panic and sell it in small quantities, I'd prolly make a fortune.

Then again, panicking may be 10 times worse than being in love. At least when you're in love, you sometimes get to feel giddy and happy. When you panic, the only time you can feel giddy is after you swallow a bottle of sleeping pills as a last resort.

That, by the way, was not a hint of the action that I will be taking in the near future.

OK. Rather than sitting down here surfing the net for pisang goreng recipes (that's goreng pisang for you Singaporeans... God knows that's actually grammatically incorrect) I should really be reading the text Anders helped me borrow from the school lib. Titled Asset Price Dynamics, Volatility, and Prediction, it seems very intriguing indeed.

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Think happy thoughts, happy thoughts, happy thoughts...

Have applied for internships in London and New York. Will see if I actually have a chance to go there next summer.

Oh, and there's BANGKOK. Can't wait to shop! Ah. *Swoon*