Sunday, October 01, 2006

i promised i wouldn't cry, but...

... reading an e-mail from my dad, and then my mum, just made the tears come pouring forth. Even as I'm typing this, I'm sobbing like mad. Yeah, not a pretty sight, and maybe even ridiculously funny...

This is my dad's reply to a very daddy's girl e-mail I sent him. I also asked him to buy some PS2 games for me when he's in Jakarta.

I am in Singapore for coming week.... kalo nanti di Jkt will see to get the game.
good that you survived, am sure as time goes, you will be more settled.
dont think about the koper now... concentrate on your study. pasti nanti ketemu jalannya, kita pikir pelan2.
ok? take care...

Is there something wrong with me? Because every time I read the lines over and over again, tears just come out like I'm some water factory.

Had a hard time just now being caught in a rain, got rather drenched and soiled my only pair of sneakers (loads of black bits got to the right shoe, trying to soak away the mud now but when I was scrubbing it just now it just wouldn't go away). Oh and somebody stole my jar of peanut butter and chocolate. And of course one of the room lights is busted. But I contained myself, tried not to let the frustration make me really boil. Yet a simple line or two started the waterworks. I guess its protective tone really get to me.

I can't decide what tears these are. Tears of sadness? Of relief that I have support back home? Of hysteria? I don't know.