Thursday, August 24, 2006

lesson #030: this is about fear

I'm afraid of so many aspects of this exchange. I haven't learned how to cook. Could I pick up a few easy dishes in just a week and a half? I haven't bought any winter clothing. Could I find a decent one in just a week and a half? I haven't thought of what to pack. Clothes would be easy, but how about the other stuff? We're talking of uprooting 4 months' worth of stuff into a foreign country. Would need cutleries, Jif's, a fresh box of contact lenses (oh my goodness! Is there time to order?), and... what if I forget stuff?? What if I can't get it over there? What if I can get it over there but it's horrendously overpriced? What if?

Okay, I'm seriously panicking and freaking out. I don't know if I'm ready for this! Living by myself for 4 whole months. I can't even keep my bedroom neat right now! Would I have time to keep the bathroom clean and dry? Would I have time to wash my clothes?

This is just... scary.