Saturday, September 03, 2005

lesson #226: freshman bash performance could've been better

Our dance pres Nic asked me if I was okay yesterday during our rehearsal. Said I was not like my usual self. Suddenly I'm forgetting steps, stumbling and getting clumsy overall. And I felt that yesterday wasn't my best, either. One of the factors being the annoying nagging pain of misplaced muscle/nerve (the one I pulled). It's the joint connecting the thigh and groin area, so everytime I bend down and lift up my right leg it hurts like *toot*. Without the nagging pain I would've done better. But still, there was something else.


Which I'm not sure what, but I know it's not just the pain that's preventing me from doing my best.


I feel like I wasn't concentrating at all. I had to listen hard to catch the music. Most annoyingly, I had to put in a lot of effort to remember the sequence of steps when usually I don't even need to think as I dance. I don't know why I was so distracted yesterday. Is this what they call being jaded? I didn't feel any adrenaline rush when we were on standby. At the end of the day, I was so disappointed with my performance that I didn't even react when someone told me I had the best bod (eh, I don't actually... It's just a clever illusion from the fit of the tee and skirt).


I could've been better. I have to outdo myself. I have to be better than the Patron's Day performance. I will NOT slip under, I will NOT be complacent. I will perfect everything before the next performance. Girls, we can do better. We shall be perfect! Repeat after me: perfect with a purr! Gary think our performance was so-so. If he still thinks that way after watching our next performance, I will eat my shoe.


Eh, speaking of shoes, I've just bought a pair of x:odus slippers. Pink satin! With a bow at the side. Pretty pretty at $39.90. Next market research topic is JACKET! I want a denim one. Or a classic sturdy woolen white one. Or a dirty/washed-out green one. Or a pink one with a nice corsage on the collar. Or a cool Adidas white/baby pink zip-up, the one Missy Elliot wore for the poster.