Saturday, May 14, 2005

lesson #168: of two minds

I got a job after a long-winded process of interviews and shock rejection which was quickly followed by a shock pulling-back-of-rejection and then a scary interview and then a handshake and then a call about office attire.


I will have to wear... suits. In a panic I bought a plain black blazer for $69 and also a pair of plain comfy pointed black pumps. With low heels. Oh my gosh. I really am becoming a dowdy grown-up.


Attire worries aside (would I really be wearing the same suit for the next three months?), I'm suddenly having second thoughts about this job. Here's the thing. I'd be working for a job agency, basically interviewing candidates and matching them with temp jobs. It's a high-stress-level environment, with working hours from 8.30 am to 6 pm and a pay of only $6 per hour. Now I feel like the work associated with the job outweighs the pay. It's a case of the greener grass looking less green by the minute to me.


I also have fears that I won't get along with the people that I'm supposed to work with. What if I become this outcast whom nobody wants to lunch with? Then I'll have my lunch alone, crying, in a seedy Takashimaya restroom somewhere. And everytime I go to work I'll glance desperately at the clock every few seconds, willing time to pass by faster so that I can go home and curl up in bed and cry again.


Oh gosh. Now I'm really scaring myself! Brrrrr. No more job talk. Went to East Coast Park with G to eat satay just now. The satay was good! But the side dish of stingray which we ordered was... not-so-good. In fact, it was a waste of $8. I could've bought a nice boob tube with that $8. Oh well.


G bought me The Five People You Meet In Heaven in hardcover. Which was a sweet gesture but at the same time also stupid because he could've just gotten me the paperback which would have cost him half as much. But anyway, thanks G! I'm halfway through the book and so far, it's pretty engaging. And the good thing about the book is that it's pretty short and extremely easy to read, so you can just pick it up and read it on the train or wherever.


Yesterday I went to lunch with Zhi and Yang, and Yang enlightened me of the existence of a cafe where you can play board games. Sounds quite interesting! I wanna go there. I think if you go with lots of your friends, it'll be quite fun.


To finish off this completely random entry, here are some photos from E-ed's trip to Singapore.



At Suntec's Fountain of Wealth. This is my fave picture!



Later on, drunk and disorderly at Paulaner Brauhaus.



It's the next morning, and we went for a dim sum breakfast at Crystal Jade. My treat! The tea smelled weird.



Airport shot. It's time to go home now. See you again next year!