Friday, February 11, 2005

lesson #45: misunderstood

Don't even bother. Why should I even try? My life sucks. All I wanna do is wallow in self-pity. Even more angry that they keep saying how lucky I am. I should treasure what I have. So now I'm made to feel guilty for feeling that my life sucks. FREAK! I hate my fucking life. Nothing's going right with it. Not a single fucking thing. Feeling so detached from everyone. Why bother? In the end it's all about me. Me me me me me. I'm going to be a hermit and live in the mountains together with goats. I honestly don't know why I'm even bothering. So friggin' stressed. Nothing is going right! Nothing makes me feel happy. Everything, everyone is demanding so much! Enough already. Enough! I hate dumbasses. Stupid... stupid... stupid. It's a bad time to be having PMS. Fuck what the hell am I going to do. Now I'm being vulgar and I'll offend people. ARGH. I hate feeling guilty for feeling sucky! Why can't I just freely say... what is on my mind. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!