Friday, January 07, 2005

lesson #22: coda

Was skimming through previous blog entries and found this from somewhere around early August of last year.

"lesson #55: five tips for a woman


From a forwarded email...


1. It is important that a man helps you around the house and has a job.
2. It is important that a man makes you laugh.
3. It is important to find a man you can count on and doesn't lie to you.
4. It is important that a man loves you and spoils you.
5. It is important that these four men don't know each other."


I don't need 1. Number 2, 3, and 4 are fulfilled by G. And yet.


Yet I keep on wanting more. Expecting more. I suppose you could call me greedy... I'm just never satisfied with what I have. There always seems to be something missing. Today I told G that I'm bored. Which is the truth. But he didn't take it too well and became upset. And then I had to go and apologise to him and try to make things well, closely analogous to cleaning up a spilled bowl of soup which I'd purposefully tipped off.


What do I want? I want romance and electricity. That special bzzzzt when we kiss. I want my toes to tingle. I want to be charmed by a bright, witty personality.


You promised me a maggie mee kiss.