Wednesday, September 08, 2004

lesson #69: need some lovin'

Today is really an off-day. Can't think of getting up, getting dressed, getting to school... I'm thirsting for a holiday already and it's just four weeks into the term. I'm sure I'll get back on track, but not just yet. Today, I just want to settle deep in the funk and never come out. Partly because of my sore hips, partly stomach cramps, and partly because it is so easy to sink into your own comfort zone. I just want to feel protected. I need a place where everything is all right all the time, where I can forget about all my troubles and worries.


Right now, I need someone who loves me the way I am. Grouchy bitch and all. You'd think getting my period (finally) will make me feel relieved, but instead all I feel is maudlin. And cramps. Lots and loooots of cramps.


'Baby-how can I talk about love and overseas if I can't do this? I would do it even if I had to hop all the way. But do you really want a salad?'


Have just received that SMS from N. He's going to SMU tonight to pick me up and send me home. Sent him a message earlier this morning to tell him he doesn't have to come since I won't be much of a company in my current state, and the above was his reply. He has a slipped disc or however you spell it, some kind of spinal injury. The pain sometimes spread to his legs, hence the hopping comment. Between my cramps and his back condition, we'll be walking home with style.