Friday, September 03, 2004

lesson #66: the imaginary bun that is in the oven

Before going to school for LTB meeting earlier today, I made a pit-stop at Orchard. Finding a game for Gameboy Advance was harder than I thought. Finally managed to purchase Sword of Mana at a very expensive price of $56. I feel like I've been cheated! Was actually tempted to forego the whole game thing and just buy something cheaper for my bro's birthday, but it didn't feel right. Paying $56 for a weightless box actually felt right! I must be losing my mind...


Speaking of games, I wanna get this.


Anyway, so after lugging my precious (and bloody heavy) laptop around town, finally got to school area and guess what? It was raining. So I trundled through the rain, drew some money from the ATM and paid for my Eurhythmix membership. The T-shirt they gave was pretty nice! And I know I'm not supposed to gloat or whatever, but I can't help feeling proud that I'm writing my name down under the main performers list and not the introductory class list. It's official, I'm one of the chosen few. Felt like punching the air or something. Just you wait and see, I'm gonna be the best dancer yet. Bring on the competition!


That was sadly the highest note of the day because afterwards everything just came crashing down. I felt so lonely wandering around school all by myself with nowhere to go and nobody to go nowhere with. My handphone battery died so I felt totally unconnected from everything. I can't even tell what time it was. Felt so sad, like I can't find where I belong... of course I had LTB meeting to go to but I just felt weird. The meeting itself was a waste of 2 hours because we couldn't decide between the two CSPs that we have a choice of doing. Some people are very against one, but the rest wouldn't compromise or budge from their position in the argument. It was kind of sad, really. And frustrating. I felt the tension and raised tempers in the air. I ended up feeling very annoyed because we still had so many stuff to do and yet the discussion just dragged on and on.


I was also annoyed at myself because... well. Why haven't I had my period yet?? It's like, way overdue?? At this rate, when it comes it's gonna interfere with dance practices. And I can't even concentrate while shopping (oops I mean... looking for bro's present) 'cos I kept thinking about it! And the more I thought about it, the more pregnancy scares I had, and then I just felt stupid 'cos that's scientifically impossible and yet I kept freaking myself out over it.